It’s almost a NEW YEAR


January 1st we started as a family “read through the bible in 1 year” 

It started out pretty strong in the family and we had one outside the family sign up because of Jenna, was pretty cool. My daughter Misty got into it and I believe she found God to be something more than she expected. I know Rico was hard into this.

I have tried hard to keep everyone motivated to finish this and at the same time I did not want to put any guilt on anyone at all. For me finishing this was much more than just “finishing it” but it was about committing to something and finishing at the goal line. It has been up and down for me, I fell behind a few times but always caught back up.

For me the exciting thing was the discussions we would all have online as questions were asked. Misty really made me dig a few times and I LOVED IT!!!

To those of you who are still reading YES YES YES and if you dropped out and picked it back up finish the last 2 weeks of December off and watch how the Lord blesses you! (of course we are not doing this to be blessed or anything else) JUST want you to KNOW Him in an intimate way, in a deep way. IF you don’t know Him there is NO way to love Him and allowing him to LOVE YOU!!!

It was fun guys and thank you for doing your part. I LOVE YOU!!!!

Comment below and give an idea of how you did and what it meant for you,

What a way to live!!!






1Thessalonians 5:
I just finished chapter 5 this morning and here are the highlights that spoke to me…
1. Be alert, be clearheaded
2. We don’t belong to darkness and night – vs 7: Night is the time when people sleep and drinkers get drunk – but we are to stay clearheaded.
3. Encourage each other and build each other up…
4. Honor those who are your leaders in the Lord’s work
5. Warn those who are lazy –
6. Encourage those who are timid
7. Take TENDER care of those who are weak
8. Be patient with everyone.
9. DO NOT scoff at prophecies
10. Stay away from EVERY KIND of evil.

Sounds like a pretty peaceful way to live. LOVE others and take care of others – Can only be done when you know who you are in the Lord –

It is only a dream…. right?


The last few weeks I have been having some strange types of dreams. They are so real that when I do wake up I’m so thankful to realize it’s only a dream. But they are sticking with me. I have been asking the Father about them and trying to get some clarity to why I would be having these, or are they just dreams?

I am half awake and half asleep it seems like but I get into a panic and the strange thing is I know that feeling well from my past life. The difference being in life I was able to push those feelings and fears down and not think about them at all, I was able to function and keep up in my stupidity and sins with no remorse or feelings at all.

Here are a couple examples….

I had a dream that I was in a powerful position, a position of influence and I was leading people to kill other people. I do not know who or why but I was having them do it and then they would have to cover it up and cover for me. There was a man and a woman who killed someone for me or led them to be killed. (I never saw any of that in the dream) when they returned I directed them to go and take care of business so nobody would ever know it was them or I was involved at all. They refused – they said that they would not do that and that my cover is going to be blown. I was SO angry with them and I was full of FEAR and REMORSE wishing I never crossed this line, I knew there was no turning back and I knew it was over. The next scene an old friend of mine was coming at me in pure anger and wanted to kill me, he was so angry and crying, and deep distraught, coming to get me. I stood in front of him and said “it doesn’t really matter I’m going to hell anyways” I was telling him not to kill me and ruin his life and I was going to be taken care of by God on judgment day. Going to HELL. He just looked at me with tears running down his face, weeping very hard and then threw a bunch of keys at me!  – I was weeping and scared and then woke up. I was SO thankful it was a dream.

Last night I had this dream that I was in a hospital but it was a hotel, it had restaurants and stores to shop, clothing, shoes, jewelry etc…I was with my wife and we went into a shoe store, while she was looking around I found myself behind the counter putting on some new shoes and putting my old ones in the box and back in the shelf. We walked out and I kept looking at the new shoes hoping she would not notice them. We went into a jewelry store and I stole some bracelet’s and a couple rings, walking out hoping she would not notice the stuff. This went on all day and then we heading back to our room and there were lot’s of people waiting for us and there was 2 maids making our beds (not sure why they were there) as I’m walking in my heart is pounding, my wife is on to what’s happening and there was no turning back the hands of time. I did it and no way out. In the room there was some very important people (not sure who) all looking sad and some with tears as I walked in. I felt so dirty, I wanted to die, I wanted out of the situation. My wife was devastated and weeping. I was full of FEAR and REMORSE but it was too late. Then I woke up and realized I was dreaming, I seriously was so happy and thankful it was a dream. It felt so weird.

There have been a couple others too that I will not forget — the question is why? I am positive they are for me, I’m sure God is speaking to me but not sure why? My life is nothing like my past life, I have no secrets in my life these days. …..

If you have thoughts feel free to share them with me in the meantime I will keep seeking the Father and asking for clarification.

A New Season

new season

There is a deep stirring within my heart and spirit that is taking place right now, actually it has been a couple months now.

I am not really sure how to put into words yet – but I am feeling that the Father is calling me to total abandonment. Even saying that it makes me feel like I have not given everything to Him yet and that is not true, I have but I’m very comfortable and I have been living in this place for some time now.

It’s like I hear the Father saying go out strong, there is SO much more that you are missing out on. And it’s nothing to do with ministry, riches, jobs, family or anything else. It’s all about my connection to Him.

I am going to be traveling on this road not to make my life better, not to get my finances in better shape, not to advance in any type of ministry, not to preach, not to have a better marriage. BUT just to live in His presence in a new way.

All of my Christian life it’s been about ME – get closer to him so I CAN SHINE – so I can save face, blah blah blah — I am not sure how much sense this makes to you, but it’s the start of a journey for me. A new stirring in my heart, a new season in my life.

See what tomorrow holds.

My Child


My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother’s womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don’t know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I’ll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God


Restore a friend that has walked away…

come-home-title-screen19 My dear brothers and sisters, if someone among you wanders away from the truth and is brought back, 20 you can be sure that whoever brings the sinner back from wandering will save that person from death and bring about the forgiveness of many sins. ~ James 5:19-20

This is SO huge on so many levels. Frist of all it’s saying that you can walk away from your salvation. This is important to know and understand, God will never stop loving us and wanting us but the notion that once you raise your hand and claim to be saved that you can never loose that salvation. God will NEVER let go of you but you can let go of God!!

Secondly when people walk away and go back into old ways, old habits etc, sometimes they do it by making the choice and sometimes they make it by being caught up in satan’s traps and really don’t even realize it. Either way it’s happening and we as brothers and sisters, as the church, as the body of Christ allow our personal feelings and anger dictate how we will treat them, pray for them and DO what we can to restore them. Most Christians say things like “they made the choice” “it’s their own fault they ……”  and we just let them go, hoping that one day they will return but even then it’s a BATTLE — trust has been broken and we “love” them with one eye open.

I will admit it’s very difficult and it’s very messy sometimes….. I have been on both sides of this fence and it’s horrible for a man or woman to feel shunned, unloved, without hope. The church needs to learn how to love unconditionally…..with all of this said it takes 2 right? But here is what I know….. “you can be sure that whoever brings the sinner back from wandering will save that person from death and bring about the forgiveness of many sins”

I could write a book on this subject, it’s very hard, complex and yet it’s very simple…..YOU are the key to how it works, who you are in Christ, your love for him and your relationship with Him will always determine how you love others…. the good the bad and the ugly.

Why Am I Angry


A couple of weeks ago at church Mike Bickle’s sister preached and I have to say it just hit me hard and right between the eyes. It’s been 2 weeks now and I can’t shake it. I want to try and explain and in doing so I have to be very transparent. The purpose of this is not about me but about what God can do and how He wants us to handle our situations. I’m doing this from memory and I hope I can do it just.

She spoke about bitterness, anger and forgiveness and how it affects us and the people around us. I know all about this (so I thought from the things I’ve been through and the experiences I’ve had in my life.

The verse used was: “Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of  bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled” Heb. 12:14-15

Read it again — get to know this verse — check it out, 1. Fall short of the glory of God. 2. Any root of bitterness springing up 3. Causes trouble and defiles many around you. Bitterness and anger are one – Anger pops up out of nowhere at times, in everyday life, driving (ouch) at work, school, family, spouse, kids, grandchildren, at anytime over the dumbest things.

As Christians we try and have this under control, we even try to hide it or excuse it but over time it becomes who we are, it controls us. God wants to deal with this, he wants to touch it and transform us to be more Christlike, why? So that we will be that light to the world around us, rather than one that defiles those around us. We become known as hypocrites, talk one way and act out another way. So for transformation to take place we must take a good long deep look at ourselves when anger and bitterness spew out of us, or well up in us and deal with it.

So about me and how this knocked me down and out. First I want to say it is not about anyone or anything else but ME and ME only. Nobody and no situation is the “cause” for my anger. She says bitterness and anger are rooted for the most part in this: “Feeling like I didn’t get or don’t get what I deserve” and it comes in 3 ways: 1. Money 2. Honor             3. Promotion

When she said this it just dropped my jaw and opened my eyes and my heart to hear some truth and some things I needed to hear.

A few months ago we moved from California to Missouri, I initiated the move for our family and I DO NOT regret it one bit. But with that said it has been very hard on me emotionally and I have been finding myself getting angry very quickly, finding myself getting bitter over some things and situations in my life. So let me take the 3 things she gave and explain them and how it has affected me. And again it’s about ME not these things.

  1. Money –  For the last 7 years in California I worked at a job that I made really good money, for the last 3 years over 100K a year. I was able to take care of family, help people when they needed, help my children if needed and save some money. Money for the most part was not an issue for us. Then we moved here and the move cost us a lot of money, more than I ever anticipated and it pretty much wiped us out, savings totally gone, our checking account to nothing. In my head I’m thinking I have a job here doing the same thing and I’ll make it up in no time. But it didn’t work out that way. I am making a fraction of what I made in Cali, and each month we go a little more backwards. For me I’ve been blaming my employer, the way things are done, the way they price vehicles, the way this is done or that is done, and bottom line I’m NOT GETTING WHAT I DESERVE, blah blah blah — well in reality I deserve NOTHING, I have to earn what I get and what ever the situation is at work makes no difference, I can either have a good attitude and get and do the very best I can, or I can get bitter and angry because I’m not making the money I think I should make. This really opened my eyes…. what really matters here is my heart and my spirit man – I have been wrong and I have been allowing it to rule my emotions. I am now working on this and giving it to God, allowing him to touch me and heal me of bitterness.
  2. Honor –Again in my last job in California I was treated with such respect from everyone, my managers, co-workers, owner and customers. They all knew where I had come from and treated me with dignity, respect and honor. I worked very hard not to feed on this as it is part of my personality and I beleive I did a good job. I had so much interaction with my co-workers and even my customers. I had some deep interactions with the owner’s down — I did weddings, funerals, I counseled so many and I had the honor of bring some of them to Christ or renew their relationship with Him. IT was truely an amazing time with much fruit. I leave it all and move to MO, let me stress this… moving here was the right thing to do and I DO NOT regret it at all. But it is so different here, it’s been hard trying to fit in and feel accepted, I walked out angry and hurt over the months. I complained and spoke badly about some of the people. IT WAS WRONG and it did NOTHING for me or them. A little over a month ago I made a decision to pray for everyone here the ones I like and the ones I do not like including all the managers. There seems to be a shift with things. I am not doing this so I can be better in this business I am doing it because that is what I should do…it’s really not about the business, it’s about the souls of men and women. My prayer is blessings, success, financial blessings, blessing over marriages, families and friends for each person. As you can see I started becoming bitter and angry, always wanting out and looking for another job. This is the end of that now!!! I am where I am and I choose the beleive that this is where God wants me. Bottom line nobody owes me anything, I don’t deserve anything from anyone..I was wrong!!
  3. Promotion – Again my last job I was in charge of so many things, people came to me for help and most of the time I would finish each month on top and close to it. I was valued and needed, they were all so sad when I left. I come here and at work I had to start from the bottom, just another salesman on the floor trying to make a living in competition with all the others. Nothing to give and not of much value. I let that get to me so much and again it was wrong wrong wrong!!

In all of these things I was feeling like I wasn’t getting what I deserved and I allowed a ROOT of bitterness to set in… my life miserable and the people around me miserable. I do not want to live this way and I won’t, my Father is working in my heart and HE will free me from it.

I hope anyone that reads this will see the heart of each word I’ve written. I am blessed beyond measure right now and I’m so thankful for all I have.